STOP

Stop stop stop!

i heard her say, stop. 

stop the touching the poking the kissing and hugging

why can't you stop!

the ground is soft among its rocks

the sky is distant and vast

stop stop stop!

i heard her say, stop.

stop looking stop talking stop telling me. i am not here for your loving

the bare winter trees

the snow, the bitter wind and empty fields, warm and full of life

stop stop stop!

i heard her say, stop.

stop laughing, stop playing, stop you're being annoying

the days are getting longer

the night is refreshing, and my fear is real

stop stop stop!

i heard her say, stop.

stop crying, stop whining, grow up or get an army

fight your battles, fight your fears i don't need you near

dreams of grandeur never seen 
only death, confusion and sin

sleeping is not easy, not easy you see 

for when my eyes close, my fears come to me

no way to stop them not way to leave
just constant sorrow and the things i've seen

stop stop stop!

i heard her say, stop.

stop telling me, stop waking. take your meds or do you hate me?

my love for you is pure, i said. my heart is bruised, confused... 

but nothing to be heard

footsteps on the stairs, yelling and screaming
so quiet and clear

my life has changed by the only one i held dear.