For Vanessa

 

My Love

Long ago you drove away

I watched in horror and stared in pain

Confused, confound and conflicted, lost in my mind 

My body restricted

No strength to move was I to find

My love drove away leaving me behind

Hardened heart for no other to be a part

With pain hidden grew to distrust

But the love I contained, I could no longer restrain

Wanting to share, I looked to God and laid my thoughts bare

A promise He kept, but misconstrued 

The trust I gave, partial at best 

A test

To guard my heart and ignore its unrest

As if anticipated, the love I gave was never accepted

Instead boredom, stagnant and sloth

Cast out, trust intact as cracks grew across my heart

But God true to his word, sent not one but three to love

Now I ask, please send me a bride, a true love to grow in stride

My horror now replaced

anticipation, contemplation

Of so many things in creation

My heart now broken from stone

above crumbled rocks it laid open and bare

Free to accept, free to receive

the real love which was long conceived.